HEY! SPEAK UP!

I Speak... I am her
The lady who was sexually molested at the age of 7
By the man she thought was a "father figure..."
We all trusted him
Even my mum...
But he took advantage of my trying to be a child...

I speak on her behalf
Jane,Grace,Mercy,Lucy,Maria...e.t.c
Because I am her...
The lady who was psychologically abused by her math teacher during her national exams.
He sent me a card
And as the norm was
The class prefect called the names from infront of the class.

Reading the message from the card and every other detail.
It was not a success card.
It was a love card,
Everyone was surprised because they never thought, I had something between me & the math teacher.

Yet,
I couldn't speak up for myself
And when I tried,
I was victimized
The cards came in almost daily
And I had to figure out how to stay focused, anyway.
I am speaking on her behalf.

The lady who was
Sexually abused in her 1st year in cumpus
He was a third year student
Looked charming and acted  liked a gentleman
Yet inside he was a beast
Looking for the next prey to...
With all my naivety
I became a victim
And God knows how much I cursed that day,
The day I allowed him in my life
We were just friends
But I geuss he thought there was more to us

So today,
I speak...
On my behalf,on her behalf,on his behalf,on behalf of everyone who has suffered depression from any form of sexual abuse.
I speak to let you know that God still sees you as beautifully and wonderfully made.
You don't have to bury your life in your past pains.
God wants you to #forgive
All who hurt you
To #embrace who you are
To #allow #Him to heal you
And to use your pain for His glory.

So,
Get out of your cave and join me in speaking out.
Arise and shine
For your light has come
And the glory of the Lord rises upon you.
Speak it out...

By
Winnie Doxa.

#SeeYourself  >>>  Through Gods’s eyes! #HeLovesYou! For His Glory!  #SoHappy! #Graced! *smiles*

Written on Dec 1^st  2016.

I AM SORRY!

                                           I'm sorry...
I am sorry I'm not her
I'm not anything close to what they told you
I am not a chocolate girl
I don't like that too
Haha!
You geussed right.

I'm sorry I am not her 
The one who is all charming
It's deceptive...
I am not all that beautiful
So don't fall for her fleeting beauty... I'm sorry I'm not her
The one who'll complete you.
I'm not her,the one who needs to be made complete by you.
Because in Christ I live,move and have my entire being.
I am complete in Him!

I'm sorry I'm not her
The one who’ll make your world happy.
But you can be confident that by God's grace I'll surely bring you joy and gladness all days of my life as I submit to Him.
Hey! 
I'm still in the process.
And I'm sorry it seems slow...
For God's glory! 
By 
Winnie Doxa.

#SlowDown! #LifeIsAProcess! #Graced! *smiles*

Written on October 25^th 2016.

GRACE OVERRULED!

To people like me who daily fight #fear..

I can't lie that I have the courage.

Well,
I know you think I am courageous
I know I have displayed it in other areas.
But the truth is, even in those moments
It’s Your presence that took me through... Every day I have to walk in it
Faith,
Without it
I know I cannot please You.
But Man! 
The truth is,
I am so damn scared! 
Remember that prayer I made as the year began? 
Yes,
I need you to #stay #close #Jesus
Stay closer to me than a wall is to paint.
Stay close.

In moments of fear
Remind me that 
You’ve given me the courage to be the courageous woman you've called me to be.
Fear, you are #not #my #portion!
I refuse to be led by you.
I know He (God) has promised never to leave me nor forsake me.
I shall live by #faith! 
Faith! Faith! 
So help me God! 
For your glory! 
By 
Winnie Doxa.

It takes #faith, in God, to be a #Christian!

Do you believe?                                                                            

Written on September 28^th  2016. #LiveCourageous! #FaceYourFears! #LetYourFaithRise! Stay blessed! Cheers! #Graced! *smiles*

WHY!!!

WHY?
Is the question I kept asking myself whenever I think about it.
How could you act so cold? 
Yet, you call yourself a Christian.

You're looking at me as if what I am talking about has nothing to do with you.
Well, I am not here to condemn you.
I just don't understand why? 
You call yourself a Christian... There is a time, I served you, in your ministry diligently.
Yet, after helping you achieve your goals.
All you told me is, God bless you sister.
You chose not to look into my needs.
I was hungry, you didn't feed me.
But still I stayed.
I lacked transport, but still I stayed.

I stayed because I know I am called.
So, God took me through.
You listened to their lies against me.
You pulled me out of the very thing that I was created to function in, based on what they told you about me, why? 
Did you even consult God before deciding that?

Friends, tell me why? 
Why does church hurt sometimes? 
Why have we chosen to become our own enemies?
Stabbing each other with false words
Have we forgotten that it's from the #fruitof the #lips that one feeds from? 
What #seed are you #sowing with #your#lips? 
What happened to encourage one another as long as it is called #today? 
What happened to #bearing with one another's #burden? 
What happened to being #one as a #bodyof Christ? 
I don't know about you
But I am sick and tired of all this hypocrisy
I want to live a life #worthy of the #calling I have received.
Anybody like me? (Are you feeling me on this...)
It's time to #rise #up & become a #better#you.
#ForHisGlory

By
Winnie Doxa.

NB: This piece was written on August 23^rd 2016.I guess it's time to put it out here...#IAmStillInTheProcess of being transformed to be like Christ! So, I bet this piece reflects you and me. Let's allow God to continue working in us! Stay blessed! Cheers! *smiles*