#GoTell!

#TellThem! 

Tell them,
Tell them how you were lost
Lost in your filth, fears and failures,
Tell them how you were
Filled with anxiety and worry crowed your hours. 
Tell them that what they now admire is not who you've always been.

You know you were lost, 
Lost in Time, yet  Found in His Grace
He found you in the midst of chaos
Running away from His truth
The only truth that can set you free

Tell them,
Tell them you are a born again Christian

Not just for the fanciness of the name
Not just for show off
Not just to fit in, 
Tell them that You know Christ loves you
Tell them that you know He cares 
Not just for you,but for them too. 

Tell them, 
It's never too late for them to give their life to Jesus.

And when you're done telling them, 
Live it out, 
Because more than they want to hear about God's love story. 
They long to see it in you and me.

"And by this all men will know that we are His disciples, if we love one another." 

Signed,

Winnie Doxa.

#LostInTimeStory!

#MyBattleWithDepression!

I am,
Well, I can't quite explain how I feel
I battle with this thoughts in my mind
It's a fierce battle that makes me want to scream.
Stop!
Stop!
Silence please.

Wait,
How did I get myself here?
I thought counselling is for them,
I have been okay,
I was okay,
Atleast, the last time I checked.

Miss Winnie,
You are here now,
Don't be ashamed of being here,
I'm a doctor just like your normal doctor
And you're my patient, just like any other patient.
So if you allow me, kindly let's get started.

Sighs,
Alright!
I thought I was okay,
Then this thoughts of fear, insecurity, unworthiness, anxiety began crowding my mind.
I didn't want to talk to anyone about it.
I thought they wouldn't understand,
Actually,
I noticed I stopped doing the things I liked
I hid from the people I loved,
Even You,
Even God.
I didn't understand why they decided to walk away suddenly.
Suddenly what I knew to be home became strange
The people I thought had my back pulled out.
I lost my job and life lost meaning.

Tell me,
Why I'm I here?
Why do I feel this way?
Where is God in all this?

I battled suicide thoughts every moment,
I know you said you'll never leave me or forsake me.
God!
Where are you now!

Miss Winnie!
Please calm down,
I hear your frustrations.
And I really feel your pain,
I am your Counsellor,
Now that you've come,
Now that I got your attention,
I'll speak and you will listen!

When God said He has great plans for your life,
He meant it.
When he said He will always be there,
He meant it.
When you were homeless
He became your refuge
When you were sick and death mentioned your name,
He was your life,
When you couldn't tell them how deeply you are grieved.
He listened,
He comforted you
Sustained you
For His glory!
He cares about you,
Stop labeling your self,
You are a warrior,
A winner
An overcome!
Live like it!
You
My child,
Are never alone!

Signed,

Winnie Doxa

From the collection>>> #HeTookMeThrough!

#STARTAGAIN!

SHORT-CHANGED!

I've been learning alot lately...

Well, I hope you have been too.

Some of the lessons have been difficult to grasp.
But God is good! We don't fully need to understand but rest in the truth that He is still with us and has it all figured out.

So, 

It's true you are not where you thought you would be now.
It feels like life has given you a major

short-change...

You know...
You gave it your all
It gave back almost nothing.
And that's okay! 

It's okay that you are where you are now.
That the script didn't turn out as you had expected.
That they turned out to be who you never thought they are.

So,
In this new year, (change of seasons of life)
I feel like it has come with a new wave of everything.
The old me is gone
The new me keeps glowing as my King {Jesus} continuosly causes His light to shine upon me.

I've lived long enough to know that I know in my knower of knower that God is loving
That He is my Father
That He is my Healer
That He is my Restorer
That He is my Banner
That He is my Friend
That He is literally my all.

In this new year
I'm fascinated at the transformation taking place in me.
I am looking forward to being more like You( Jesus) daily as my Helper (Holyspirit) continues to work in me.
#I #am #making #room for You Jesus.
Take it all over!
Will you!

Signed,

Winnie Doxa

REACH OUT!

So...

Life happened!

And I had to let go of what I knew was killing me...
It took away my peace,my joy and  everything that created a safe environment for me.
I battled with the thought of letting it go,not cause I was complacent
But because I was afraid of what the future would bring forth.

I knew God wanted me to let go, but it was so hard this time.
Maybe I had become comfortable
Maybe I was used to the systems
Maybe I had stopped living by faith and put my confidence on stuff and people... 

So,
With my heart frail, hands shaking and feet trembling
I finally had to submit myself to His will
I let go of what I thought was it.
What everyone around me thought was it.
I have chosen to reach out to the unknown.
To walk as if I am blind with my eyes of faith open and fixated on Christ alone! 

And this time,
I need you God to keep me reminded that all I'll ever need is You!

Signed, 

Winnie Doxa.

Photo Courtesy of  #JimmyMburu

I NEVER THOUGHT...

TRAPPED!

She was my dream girl,

A rare gem

With beauty to behold!

I liked her, but I wasn’t really sure if she’d date or even go out with me

You see,

I’m a man battling many things,

I was raised by a single mum,

The firstborn male in my family,

I didn’t quite get to campus,

And I’m also trying to figure out this salvation thing

So, I keep serving God as much as I can.

But the truth is, I’m not sure I’m really saved…

It all began when I met her in church,

She was everything you now call, a slay queen.

She was a first time visitor and I must admit, I was smitten

Being the youth Pastor,

I later followed her up with a call for welcoming first time visitors,

You know…

And one call, led to another and before I realized,

We were chatting frequently, having long conversations…

But hey!

What’s wrong with just, “Pastoring ?“

I didn’t notice I was slowly falling into her trap…

She was so tactful,

She made sure my mind was fully engaged with her,

Her photos on instagram…

Oh man!

Irresistible!

Though she showed off some skin,

Well, actually a lot.

I just found myself liking them and even commenting,

“Girl, you’ve put me on fire”

I was trapped,

And I fell in,

How I found myself in her bed, I can’t quite explain…

It happened once, twice and many more times.

She had taken me over with her deception.

I didn’t know I was digging my own grave.

When she was done, she dumped me!

I continued to serve God with my guilt, anger and bitterness.

No one will ever know I committed this sin.

I’ll just move on like nothing happened.

I didn’t realize that those sexual encounters with her were turning me into the man I never thought I would become.

I began living recklessly

Taking advantage of every girl that came my way

Young, old, same age, anyone ready and willing to lay in bed with me, would have it.

After all, I got great looks, who would say no?

I turned into a beast,

Not realizing that I was hurting someone’s daughter, someone’s sister, someone’s marriage…

And the worst part, is that,

I never realized, I was hurting me more!

Who have I become?

Tell me, who I’m I?

When did my conscience die?

When did I stop realizing that God is still watching?

I’ve lost her too,

The one who genuinely loved me.

Because all I knew was to take advantage of people,

To use and abuse them, then dump them as soon I was done

I need deliverance!

I need healing!

I need restoration!

I need forgiveness! 

And maybe this will take me a lifetime…

Can’t you all see that I’m a wounded man!

Trapped in sexual cycles,

Battling my other insecurities,

Hiding in the Christian circles to make me feel a little good about me.

But hey!

Man or woman,

You don’t have to end up in this kind of mess,

Please beware of the traps,

Learn from my story!

The struggle is real!

I’m slowly and surely losing it.

Pray for me!

By

Winnie Doxa. 

Winnie Doxa - I Pray For You (Spoken word)

TO ALL MOTHERS!

We make her #MyMum! Do funny things sometimes...So, on behalf of all of us, myself and you. Here's #to #all #mothers.

You sure do make our world a better place.
You show up when we are in our deepest need.
'You explain dad to us and explain us to Him'
You are clothed with strength and dignity
Even when you feel weak, you wear that mask( a smile) that holds us all together
You have understood that you are a pillar in our lives
And your strength keeps us going

You are gentle, very gentle
Yet when you roar,
We all submit
Mama you are powerful,
So powerful that when you cry,
Heavens deafens to daddy's prayers
You know when to speak
You know when to be silent,
You know when to make a move
You know when to stay still.

Mama,
You are our voice,
When you call heaven on our behalf answers are assured.
Because you've learnt to make Him ( God) your refuge.
You've learnt to cry to Him and smile at us.
You'll learnt to pour your frustrations to Him and on the other hand you make us feel like conquerors whenever we bring our frustrations to you.
You've learn't to love Him fearlessly and allow Him to love you right back.
And your fearless love for us makes us brave! .

So, dear mama,
I know you are still learning from the eternal Love of your life ( God )
Thank you!
Thank you for teaching us that strength and submission can be displayed in one person
Thank you for daily dying to yourself that we may live.
Thank you for embracing this role that we can never afford to pay you back
Thank you for who you are.
A blessing! A friend! A teacher! .

Mama,
May you find your deepest fulfilment in being you!
God Knows the sacrifices you make,
God sees them,
God cares,
We value and appreciate you today and always.
And like I said,
You make the world a better place!

I know you feel like you have failed us in other things, but even just for birthing us, adopting us, raising us and all you've done for us.
Broken as you are,
We celebrate you!
You are a hero!
Keep on keeping on!
God got you!
With love,
#HappyMothersDay!

Signed,
Winnie Doxa.

#CelebratingAllMothers! #SoHappy! #FearlesslyLoved! #FearlesslyLoving! #LionessArising! #Graced! *smiles*