#LostInTimeStory!

#MyBattleWithDepression!

I am,
Well, I can't quite explain how I feel
I battle with this thoughts in my mind
It's a fierce battle that makes me want to scream.
Stop!
Stop!
Silence please.

Wait,
How did I get myself here?
I thought counselling is for them,
I have been okay,
I was okay,
Atleast, the last time I checked.

Miss Winnie,
You are here now,
Don't be ashamed of being here,
I'm a doctor just like your normal doctor
And you're my patient, just like any other patient.
So if you allow me, kindly let's get started.

Sighs,
Alright!
I thought I was okay,
Then this thoughts of fear, insecurity, unworthiness, anxiety began crowding my mind.
I didn't want to talk to anyone about it.
I thought they wouldn't understand,
Actually,
I noticed I stopped doing the things I liked
I hid from the people I loved,
Even You,
Even God.
I didn't understand why they decided to walk away suddenly.
Suddenly what I knew to be home became strange
The people I thought had my back pulled out.
I lost my job and life lost meaning.

Tell me,
Why I'm I here?
Why do I feel this way?
Where is God in all this?

I battled suicide thoughts every moment,
I know you said you'll never leave me or forsake me.
God!
Where are you now!

Miss Winnie!
Please calm down,
I hear your frustrations.
And I really feel your pain,
I am your Counsellor,
Now that you've come,
Now that I got your attention,
I'll speak and you will listen!

When God said He has great plans for your life,
He meant it.
When he said He will always be there,
He meant it.
When you were homeless
He became your refuge
When you were sick and death mentioned your name,
He was your life,
When you couldn't tell them how deeply you are grieved.
He listened,
He comforted you
Sustained you
For His glory!
He cares about you,
Stop labeling your self,
You are a warrior,
A winner
An overcome!
Live like it!
You
My child,
Are never alone!

Signed,

Winnie Doxa

From the collection>>> #HeTookMeThrough!

#STARTAGAIN!

SHORT-CHANGED!

I've been learning alot lately...

Well, I hope you have been too.

Some of the lessons have been difficult to grasp.
But God is good! We don't fully need to understand but rest in the truth that He is still with us and has it all figured out.

So, 

It's true you are not where you thought you would be now.
It feels like life has given you a major

short-change...

You know...
You gave it your all
It gave back almost nothing.
And that's okay! 

It's okay that you are where you are now.
That the script didn't turn out as you had expected.
That they turned out to be who you never thought they are.

So,
In this new year, (change of seasons of life)
I feel like it has come with a new wave of everything.
The old me is gone
The new me keeps glowing as my King {Jesus} continuosly causes His light to shine upon me.

I've lived long enough to know that I know in my knower of knower that God is loving
That He is my Father
That He is my Healer
That He is my Restorer
That He is my Banner
That He is my Friend
That He is literally my all.

In this new year
I'm fascinated at the transformation taking place in me.
I am looking forward to being more like You( Jesus) daily as my Helper (Holyspirit) continues to work in me.
#I #am #making #room for You Jesus.
Take it all over!
Will you!

Signed,

Winnie Doxa