#BlackLivesMatter

Dear George Floyd!

I'm sorry we've met in this manner,
As I write this,
My heart is filled with inexpressible pain and sorrow,
It's unfortunate that the world has gotten to know you in a way that no human deserves to be known
At the point of your untimely death.

I can tell you were a fighter,
I've watched you fight to live under the knees of an officer,
They had your hands down, you still fought with your voice
And I can't breath is the statement you said more than once...

Were they listening?
Were they thinking about your pain?
Could they feel the groan in your voice?
Do they have brothers, sons and fathers?
I wonder,
Do they even have a heart?

It didn't have to end like this,
But it has,
Does it have to take another black life for us to realize that we are first humans before we are coloured?

I can't imagine what's going on in the hearts and minds of your family and friends.
No one deserves to see a loved one die in this manner.
You've died a fighter, fighting for your very life.

Your death is an awakening for us to start living as humans, coloured or not
For us to value life more
For governments to deal with their citizens in a respectful way
For policies to change
For love to be our uniting factor
And if tired is what we have been waiting for,
Watching you die has moved us beyond tired of racism
Something has to change!

My prayers goes out to everyone affected in one way or another by this evil #racism!
My deepest condolences to the family and friends!
I'm praying for you!

Heart felt,
Winnie Doxa.
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Rest In Power! 

From the collection #BrokenPieces!

Dear Future Husbae

#DearFutureHusbae

I've been thinking about you a lot lately,
I don't know whether it's cause of the quarantine...lol!
Or it's cause of the pressure of seeing images all over my social media of couples...
Or it cause most of my friends are all married...
Or it's cause of all the voices that tell me, why am I still single?
Or it's cause I really wish we were together by now...
Mmh!
*sighs*

If you'd have asked me,
I would have married you 6 years ago,
Yeah, you heard me right...
But looking back, I'm glad I didn't cause it probably would have ended up being a regret ever after,
I was so full of myself,
I thought it was your job to make me happy
To determine my worth, to make me feel like a queen...
Clearly, I put you on a pedestal...

I'm glad I was first introduced to Him (Christ)
Before we meet,
I'm glad He's jealous love for me kept us from meeting,
I won't lie to you, I didn't trip, I did, a number of times, trying to find you in men who didn't know what it's like to treat a King's child.
My heart got broken,
As many times as I tried to find you in them.
Quite honestly, I'm glad it was,
Cause more than ever, I've now gotten really tire of being tired, like for real...
Honey, you are so worth the wait!
And I will wait for you, if it takes all my life...
I remember, I prayed for you
And I still do.

Dear Husbae,
You're probably thinking that I'm so perfect right now,
I'm not, I still fall short, in many ways,
But I'm willing to become better everyday as I submit myself to Christ first,
I'm willing to learn your silent language and memorize it like my birthday date.
I'm willing to uphold you in absolute love and purity until we say, I do!
I'm willing to stay,
To be your ride or die,
To communicate my fears, dreams and everything in between
I'm willing to be yours, not just by name but with all that I am.

I wonder though,
Are you ready for me?
Will you be still asleep like Adam awaiting a heavenly awakening?
Will you be able to read beyond my smiles and silence,
Will you be willing to uphold  me in absolute love and purity in our becoming process...
Will you be able to resist this fleeting beauty and devote yourself to learning the rhythm of my heart?
The rhythm of Christ's heart towards me?
Will you be willing to die to your deep passions for me, daily, that Christ may be glorified through us?
Will you be willing to fight for our our love, as if it's the best love story ever told?
Will you be willing to keep pursuing me even after we say, I do?
Will you be willing to love me daily like Christ loves His church?
Will you be willing to listen to my crazy stories and laugh with me?
Will you be willing to share your deepest thoughts with me,
Confident that you'll find  refuge in my heart.

Man!
I've been thinking about you alot lately,
I wonder if you have,
One thing I'm sure about,
You are worth the wait!
And, I will wait for you!

Thinking about you!

Signed,

Winnie Doxa.

From the collection #HeartToHeart!