Overcomer You Are!

#OvercomerYouAre!

So,
I thought you would break me,
Not so much because you have the power to
But because you had mastered how to put me down
I began the year heart broken
I felt like life lost meaning
Forgetting that my worth cannot be tagged along who stays and who leaves....

I thought you would break me,

Because just when I thought I was getting healed, you sorrounded me with sorrow after sorrow...
While they were on parte after... 

I lost a relative who was more like a mother to me.
Then, another relative's home got burnt down
It felt like a thriller movie.
Before I could  recover,
We lost yet another relative, and another
and another...
I felt like I would lose my mind, literally!
I stopped telling people about it,
I was tired of explaining how.
The thought, 'Where is your God' was the playback in my mind.
He was still there...

I thought you would break me,
Because just when I thought I had lost enough,
I found myself looking for a place to stay, again!
Because I got evicted without notice...
My mind at this point wasn't functioning very well,
I felt extremely overwhelmed, I felt lost, I felt alone.
How can life become so cruel?
I wondered,
Anyway, I chose to breathe and sigh deeply.
As words couldn't describe how I felt.

I thought you ( 2019) would break me,
Because I had to make really tough decisions concerning my destiny.
Looking back, I am thankful to God that I met you.
I realized that you didn't have that power unless I gave it to you.
I realized that you were strengthening me
I realized you were shaping me,
Because now, more than ever,
I deeply emphasize with anyone going through loss
I haven't mastered it, as I reckon I can't,
But my perspective is definitely changed.

Thank you again
For showing me what I am really made of
For teaching me to find joy in the storms 
To filter negative vibes and focus on what builds   me up.
To find peace in chaos
To find God in silence
To find purposes in pain
And most importantly not to lose myself in pity party.
I am now looking forward to 2020 with my swords on.
I have to let you go 2019,
So, I forgave, forgave and forgave more
I can't carry you with me, though rest assured, I'll carry the lessons with me.

Happy new year!!!
May you rise above every obstacle realizing that He who is in you is greater than the one in the world.

Inspired by true life experiences.
From the collection...#HeTookMeThrough!

Signed,
Winnie Doxa.