SIGH!

It happened too fast,
We had just met, I liked the way he smiled at me.
I liked being around him.
He told me I was the best thing that has ever happened to him
He told me he can't wait to make me his woman,
He told me all those things that give you butterflies...
And also,
He said, I make his world go around,
Imagine! I believe it...
Lol!

I wasn't very sure about him,
Everything physical looked like exactly what I wanted,
When he opened his mouth I could tell that He is smitten
Yet, I knew he hadn't given his life to Christ
How could he know so much about a God he never encountered?
I was awed,
A battle between what I wanted and what I prayed for begun in me.

It happened so fast,
Before I knew it,
We were out on dates,
We spent a lot of time chatting and calling each other.
It seemed like a dream come true,
The battle still continued and my flesh took the crown.
I couldn't imagine letting him go...

One day he was unwell,
I had to go and visit him at his place,
I cared for him,
And with time he recovered,
I still went to visit him,
Not knowing I was trapping myself...
It was a Sunday afternoon,
I had just come from church,
Passed by his place and before I knew it
I found myself in his bed.
How did this happen?

It happened so fast,
I felt so guilty, I felt I had betrayed my faith
I wondered if the church would accept me.
He was sorry, of course! And said whatever happened we are in it together,
I left and took sometime away from him to talk to myself,
Then I noticed I missed my periods...
Yes, I got pregnant...

It happened so fast,
How could I be so foolish,
The condemning voices begun,
I stopped going to church,
I had no friends from church,
My "prince charming"also left me
I was surely the award winning sinner of that time...
And in the midst of all that,
I had to find some little faith in me to keep me going!

So,
" It happened so fast,"
Is a statement I don't take lightly nowadays,
It reminds me of my brokenness, my vulnerability,
My lack of patience on waiting on God's promises for me.
And most importantly it also reminds me of
God's grace, love, mercy, patience and goodness.
My heart goes out to people like me who found themselves in spaces they never imagined because,
It happened so fast...

May God sustain you,
May you realize this is not the end of your story...
Praying Isaiah 54 over your life!

Nowadays,
I am learning to really slow down in the decisions and choices I make, because,
It happened too fast is a lesson I live with.

Signed,
Winnie Doxa.

Inspired by true life experiences...From the collection >>> #HeTookMeThrough!